God gave me this thought to rest in today and I wanted to share it, as it is really calming my heart for the moment:
With every image of this battle that I fear I won't forget, I strengthen
myself against the pain it causes me, knowing that though it hurts me
to the core, it is ministering true love to Brandon in his time of need.
Giving love far outweighs the pain I take on in serving my husband.
True love is selfless, and this is where I get to bless Brandon. As
Jesus took the pain of the cross out of love for us, Lord, let the love
that was shown outshine the pain I feel. Let it overcome and encompass
the hurt, and fill me with joy. Amen.