Well, reality is starting to set in. As I take baby steps towards my new path in life, I realize more and more how difficult this journey is going to be.
I keep praying 'God, I just don't want to. I'm sorry, but I don't. You
have gotten me this far, and I have to trust that you will allow the
pieces to come together to help me through this next part. Help me to
believe when the fear and pain are too much and I start to doubt.'
I still need to do a post about God's perfect timing, it's just going to
take me some time to write that one. Time that I have not had.
But because He had aligned so many things to meet my needs in such a
perfect way in all this mess, though I get scared and doubt because I
can not see how, I still have faith that He will continue provide for
Please pray that God gives me much wisdom and guidance with many
difficult decisions I will have to make. I ask that you specifically
pray for my living situation as those decisions are some of the first
that need to be addressed.
Do I look for a roommate? What does that look like with an infant? Who
would want to come into this situation? Do I need to sell our home? Can I
even take care of a single family house with an infant? These are just
the beginnings of the questions that are spinning in my mind.
Despite these questions I have to say that I am incredibly grateful to
the generosity of so many people to the fundraisers for us. Because of
you I don't have to rush this major decision, and have some resources to
bridge the gap of a single income for a couple of months as I put the
pieces of my life back together. I am trusting God implicitly to provide
for this, deliver me the right person or situation, as I am pretty
confident I can not afford it on my own. But, truly, from the bottom of
my heart, thank you for giving me the peace of mind that I don't have to
settle for whatever immediate resolution I could find and take time to
pray and wait for God.
I apologize if this post is scatterbrained, been trying to get the prayer request out there for days now.
Thank you for your prayers for wisdom, guidance and mercy for me. ♥️