As we are about to enter a new year I have such mixed feelings.
Part of me is like, 'Good riddens year from hell'. But the moment
that thought crosses my mind I am struck with the realization that this
year didn't only bring indescribable heartache, it also brought
I don't want the year 2014 to always have this gut wrenching initial
reaction. In reality it was bittersweet. It held the best and the worst
moments of my life.
This year brought me the the greatest test my faith has ever seen. When everything in my world shook and fell, I discovered where I found my balance.
2014 brought both the first and the last memories of Brandon with our
daughter. Dreams were realized, and dreams were shattered.
In it we made our final memories as husband and wife. It brought a new meaning to our vows we made over 8 years ago.
It showed me the strength in a 'village' of support, and humbled me
by the love and selflessness of strangers, friends and family.
As I look ahead to 2015, I don't even consider coming up with a
resolution this year. In years passed, successful resolutions were: to
start recycling (2012), to continue making better environmental choices
(2013), make better healthy choices (2014). But honestly, I just don't
feel like giving myself any more challenges right now!
My Aunt suggested something she has been doing the past few years;
choosing a word to inspire or direct your year. I like this idea.
Immediately the word PERSEVERE came to my mind. As I thought on it
more I contemplated lots of other words, but this one just fits.
2015 will be a year of a lot of firsts. The first Wedding
Anniversary, Valentine's Day, birthday, family vacation and so much more
without Brandon. Aria's first steps, first birthday, and first words.
Brandon's first Angelversary.
It's hard to face these events. But I'll do my best to focus on my word for this year ahead.
Persevere: to persist in anything undertaken; maintain a purpose in
spite of difficulty, obstacles, or discouragement; continue steadfastly.
Maybe you'll join me in also choosing a word for 2015? I'd love to
know what will be guiding you this year! Share in the comments below.
I wish you all a safe New Years, God Bless.